Saturday, July 08, 2006

my life has always been a routine. i'm kinda sick of it.. "i want adventure on the great wide somewhere. i want it more than i can tell. and for once, it might be grand.. to have someone understand. i want so much more than they have planned.." a verse from beauty and the beast that somehow describes what i am feeling. okkeeii, some say i live a simple life. but it's likely becoming boring.. i go out of the house, go to school, learn, talk to a few friends, go home, study when i feel like it then sleep. every day. every single day.. looking at other people: they have their barkada.. with their trips and all. stay late at night.. drink til they drop. go where the flow takes them. i don't have that kind of barkada. i am not even sure if i have a barkada. i'm still looking for the place where i belong.. where my heart longs for. and i think i want that kind of barkada.. i guess i haven't found the right peers.

or maybe.. this kind of life is where i belong(?) *sigh* who knows.. maybe i'm just looking for something not there. you might say i should just stick to what i have and appreciate it rather than dreaming for something.. let's see..

so anyway. last friday, we were told to have our return demonstration on bed-making the next day. our c.i.'s gave us one night to memorize the procedure and the rationale. so, i planned of going home after class to memorize. but then, some nerdz invited me to hang out. . . i took the opportunity. hehe. it was unusual of me to go home late at night with a big requirement that must be prepared the next day. well, in life, we must take risks. ;) how many times do i get to stay late at night? once in a blue moon lang.. and would i just reject it? hehehe. kinda desperate? not really. i just want to sit back and relax. hehehe. well, it's a good thing that i wasn't called to do the demonstration. i only had the following morning to start memorizing.

looking forward to more surprises in life. ;)